I quit my job last week.
Hold on, Nicky, what? You don’t work in Singapore, what are you talking about?
So you might remember when we moved here, I took a leave of absence from my job at the Evil Empire. No? Okay. When we moved here, I took a leave of absence from my job at the Evil Empire. We weren’t sure how we’d go in Singapore, or how long we’d stay. What if we hated it? What if Dave decided the executive life wasn’t for him? When we came back to Melbourne I’d need a job again. Best not to get rid of the one I had if I could help it.
I hat a massive amount of long-service leave racked up, so I took that at half pay for about 18 months, and topped it up with a leave of absence. That took me through to around February of last year. When it was obvious at the end of 2016 that we wouldn’t be going home yet I tried to organise working from the Singapore office, but it didn’t work out. Instead they extended my leave as long as possible, which took us right up to… last Wednesday.
And I’m still here.
I have to hand it to my work, they were very good letting me put htis off as long as possible. They kept asking me, have you decided what you want to do? And I kept saying, I would love to come back to work but I’m in Singapore and you are in Australia and unless you decide to let me work from here (hint, hint) I can’t see that I have any options other than (a) move back to Aus or (b) quit, and they’d say, uh-huh, great! Well you have until the 14th to let us know!
Honestly, it was obvious for ages what I needed to do. And it shouldn’t have been such a big deal, except I was scared. I’ve had that job for almost my entire adult life. It’s always been there, I’ve always had a means of supporting myself. Marriages fail here all the time; I liked knowing I had a backup plan. Now to be without that… actually, in some ways it might be a good thing to not be able to fantasise about running away whenever it gets bad. But it’s also scary to be without that safety net, and that identity. If I’m not longer an Evil Minion, who am I?
They did make very nice noises about finding me something when we come back. Of course, there are normally staff freezes etc etc, so I take that with a grain of salt. The best thing I can do for myself now is to get another job here, to make me even more irresistible. But do you know how long it’s been since I’ve done a proper, external, job interview? Decades. And while I’m a techy I’m not really a techy techy; I wouldn’t say I’m a programmer, or a database admin, or a business analyst, or a support person. I’ve done all those things, I’m somewhere in between. Most of my value to the Evil Empire came from my knowledge and experience. There aren’t many places that need that in Melbourne, which is one of the many reasons I stayed. But here, there are plenty of places I could work. I just have to get out there and be brave. Who will I be next?
lanterns, Holland Village